Clearing My Mind

What do you mean, I have work to do?

Most days I count my blessings as I sit down at my computer, happy to be writing, to have my family, to be living here.

And then there are days when really, all I want to do is sit on the couch and binge watch Avengers movies or Game of Thrones, or the Tudors. Or something. Just eat crisps and have endless cups of tea and ignore the washing and tidying that needs to be done. Sit in the sunshine and drink cider, go to the shops and spend money I shouldn’t. Be a bit naughty. Let it go.

That’s pretty normal, right?

And so it is today. I have work I should be doing. Work I’m supposed to be doing. But instead I’m fiddle faddling around with Homes Under the Hammer and Twitter, writing blog posts like this one and yes, the crisps have already been opened.

I’ve done some writing, sure. I’ve written a letter to a magazine about something I read recently. I commented on someone’s post. I’ve written this post. I’ve started another. I’ve even written the first sentence of some actual paid work (with plans to write a little more later, honest).

I think I’ve mentioned the fact that I like to meditate. I used to be really good at doing it every day without fail, and in fact it helped me sort out a whole bunch of stuff, clearing my mind in every way. These days I don’t do it as often as I should but I still find, when I do, that it’s a great way to clear the clutter and get set on what I need to do next. And I also think, when I have days like this, that it’s another way of clearing the clutter. As I potter about doing a bit of this and that, I’m actually clearing a whole bunch of crap out of my mind leaving it clear and ready to focus later. I have a deadline to meet, which I know I will do, and editing to work on. I have emails to write and parcels to send. There is laundry and cleaning and cooking to do, the day-to-day minutiae of managing a house and family. You know what I mean. And I’ll get it all done.

But I might watch some X-Men movies first.

(And yes, I know I’m lucky to work from home and be able to do this once in a while. Another blessing counted 🙂 So I’m not complaining, simply observing how my day is today. How’s your day going?)

Herding Cats

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So, I’ve been doing a little editing recently. I have six books on the go at the moment – the next five instalments of The Ambeth Chronicles, plus another unrelated novel that’s very close to being finished. Oh, I’m not trying to edit them all at once, not at all – that would be a recipe for insanity, I think. Instead I’m focusing on No Quarter, the next Ambeth instalment, with occasional forays into A Thousand Rooms, my unrelated-to-anything-else novel.

When I first wrote No Quarter, the words just fell from my fingertips, so fast at times it was hard to get them onto the page, my fingers flashing on the keyboard as the sentences flowed. But, as is so often noted, first drafts usually suck. Sure, the story is there, plus the occasional passage where you’ve just nailed it, managing to write the words just as you wish them to be. But for the most part, first drafts need a lot of editing, refining and fairly ruthless chopping before they are ready to go out into the wider world.

And so this book was no different. I’ve edited it several times since first writing, had it out to beta readers (all of whom loved it), and have read and re-read it many times myself. But it needs a little more polishing. And so I’m on a final structural edit before sending it to my editor (is that a bit like cleaning the house before the cleaner comes over?) and the phrase ‘herding cats’ keeps coming to mind as I chase the words across the page.

For it seems as soon as I get one lot of phrases in order, another set runs free, yowling and scratching and refusing to get into line, leading to yet more rewriting and adding and taking away. It is a fight, this book, yet I will not give up. The story is there and, if I keep going, bit by bit, I know I’ll get it corralled.

I once wrote of words as being slippery silver fish, lurking in dark waterweed. At the time I was thinking more of how it feels when you’re searching for the correct phrase to express what it is you want to say, a far more sedate place to be than the forest of handwritten notes and wriggling paragraphs where I find myself now.

And so I continue, cracking my metaphorical whip and wielding my red pen, pulling these unruly sentences into line, tying the story together. And I know that, eventually, it will be done and I can sit back, nursing my scratches and breathing deep, before I tackle the next one.

How does editing feel to you? Is it a struggle, or a part of the process that flows? There are so many metaphors that come to mind: trying to squeeze into a too tight corset, smoothing harsh edges in a sculpted piece of work, untangling a skein of silken thread. Editing is a necessary part of the writing process and, once completed, gives the satisfaction of a job well done, a polished piece of art ready to share with a wider audience.

But at the moment, it’s all cats 🙂

Ten Days

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Ten days.

It’s not a great deal of time. Less than two weeks, one third of a month. Yet it has made all the difference.

My neighbourhood has bloomed since I’ve been away. Hedges that were black and bare, leafless trees only misted with green or pale hints of blossom are now verdant with foliage, sylvan glades beckoning. My garden has come to life, tulips and bluebells and violets everywhere, clematis buds and peonies waiting to pop, blossom on the fruit trees a pink and white promise of fruit to come.

And I also feel changed. Things were busy and not a little stressful in the lead up to this time away, so it was a relief to get there, to look up at blue sky above snow bound slopes and just… breathe.

Patchy internet connection in the mountains meant that, even if I did decide to click on a link, more often than not it wouldn’t load. So I stayed offline for the most part, just spending time being. Enjoying walking and exploring and spending family time, stretching our horizons. Discovering new places, revisiting places I’d been before.

There was some writing, of course. I don’t know that I can go a day without it at the moment. Thinking about plot lines and structure. Writing notes for a new book, yet to be started.

Now I am home again. I know I’m lucky, to have been able to step away from my life for a few days. The house feels strange/familiar, as though I’ve been away long enough and far enough for a shift in my perspective. I will be back to work this week. There are books to be edited, clients to follow up. But for now, I shall ease my way back into things, holding this change close to me, wanting to feel its effect for as long as possible.

Ten days. It’s not a huge amount of time, but it was enough.

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Over The Hills and Far Away

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I am taking a little break from blogging. Just for a few days.

A trip to the mountains beckons, and with it some time to refresh and renew. Also, No Quarter, the second book in the Ambeth series, needs a nice solid edit so I’ll be venturing into the woods again, working through what happens next for Alma, Caleb and Deryck. And finally, I might get a little bit of time to read for pleasure. I’ve a couple of books to get through, Rise of The Prince by Nicholas Rossis (which I’ve already started and am enjoying), and Ordinary Handsome by Stephen Baird (which I’ve not yet started, but am looking forward to getting into).

And lovely Chris at The Story Reading Ape has kindly offered to feature me as one of his Guest Authors- the post is due to go live tomorrow so please do take a look and, while you’re there, take a wander through some of the other interesting material on his blog – it’s a great resource.

So I’ll be around for messages and things like that, and will be back soon with, hopefully, some new content. I’m also about to get back on the submissions trail with a new book called A Thousand Rooms. So I’ll let you know how that goes…

Until then… xx

A Piece of Sky

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I found this flint some time ago. Split open, it lay upon the path where I walked.

It looks as though a star is inside it, as though long ago one fell to earth and became caught in the stone.

In Ambeth, the Elders of the Light watch the stars and see what they portend. They call it the skylore, the movement and patterns made in the sky letting them know what has been and what will be. It’s how they knew that Alma would be coming to them, that she would be the one to help them.

I live in an ancient landscape but then, I suppose anywhere in the UK could be defined as such. There are old traditions of watching the stars, ancient monuments aligned with the sun as it moves through the seasons. And this is not confined to the UK alone. Several years ago, an amazing star disk dating back to around 1600BC was found in Germany. Called the Nebra Sky Disc, it is made of bronze and gold and depicts the sun, moon and stars (including a cluster identified as the Pleiades), as well as two golden arcs for the solstices. It’s an extraordinary thing, the metals of its construction coming from as far away as Cornwall, hinting that the world, over three millennia ago, was a much more complex place than perhaps we imagine.

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Nebra Sky Disc – Photo attribution Wikimedia Commons – DBachmann

So I like to think of my little flint as a piece of a star. And I can hold it and link myself back to those ancients who watched the skies.

Happy Easter, everyone!

Treasure Hunting

Last summer my husband, daughter and I went metal detecting in our local woods. Of course we had dreams of uncovering some sort of golden hoard, left in days past by desperate refugees fleeing advancing armies, but we figured the reality was more likely to be an array of soft drink cans and old screws and nails, left by not-so desperate people who just couldn’t be arsed to find a bin (but that’s a whole other rant).

However.

It seemed like a fun thing to do, the weather was nice, the woods green and glowing, and an afternoon in the fresh air searching for treasure was an afternoon well spent, as far as we were concerned.

So, what did we find?

Well, it was a surprisingly fruitful mission. The woods in question were once part of the grounds of a Jacobean manor, sadly demolished in the 1950’s when death duties and a collective sort of madness seemed to grip those in charge of our heritage homes. So the house was gone but the woods remained, and into the green we went, venturing off the beaten path in hopes of finding something special. We found loads of coins, actually. Coppers and a few no-longer shiny twenty pence pieces, enough to keep the gorgeous girl very excited. Sure, there were a few bits of tinfoil, some old rusty nails and, on one lengthy dig, the sad realisation that the large response we were getting was from a nearby drain cover, but for the most part we found stuff that was worth digging for. We even found an old penny, George V by the very faint silhouette barely visible on its worn surface, the edges nibbled away by its time in the ground. And then we found this:

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What is it? It was fairly deep down, six or seven inches below the surface. It’s obviously man made, but for what purpose? For me, and this is entirely a gut instinct kind of thing, it feels as though it had something to do with the war. Like it was a gun sight or something. The piece is surprisingly heavy and very solid under all the rust, measuring about 15cm long. We were all fascinated by it, our first piece of ‘treasure.’

As we walked and listened for beeps and talked and enjoyed the day, a small boy and his mother came along the path. We were digging at that moment, and the little boy was fascinated, asking us what we were doing. I replied ‘we’re looking for treasure,’ and his face lit up.

‘Can I help?’ he asked, but his mother, smiling, told him they needed to keep going, and perhaps they could look for treasure themselves another day. So he watched for a few moments more and then they went on their way. And, as we went home under the fading sun, dirty and tired and clutching our little bag of booty, we all appreciated what a good day it had been and that maybe, the treasure we found was not something that could be measured or weighed, but something infinitely more valuable.

Spreading My Wings

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Reflection like wings…

‘A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.’ Lao Tzu

I made my first tweet the other day.

I’d been resisting Twitter for a long while now, simply because I wasn’t sure what I’d have to contribute. But then a lovely post by Eilis Niamh (here) made me reconsider my position, as did the fact that a couple of things happened that I would have tweeted about, had I the chance to do so.

And of course I’ve just published my first book, and the above quote was kind of how I felt about it all. There are so many steps to take in this journey and I feel as though I’m only at the beginning, even though I’ve already written and published a book. I compare it to how it feels when you get your black belt – you realise that, even though you’ve trained for several years to get to this point, you are at the beginning again. That all the learning you’ve done to date was only the preface to all that there is to learn, and that the process goes on for as long as you do. There’s a reason I called this blog ‘Journey To Ambeth’, because I believe that the journey is as valuable as the end result.

I have many more books to write and publish. I still would like to have an agent, one day, but at the same time am content to navigate my own path for now. Ambeth is going to be a series of six books, plus I can feel a short story collection coming along as well. Then there are the other books, one almost written, the others simply collections of notes at this time, waiting until I can sit down and listen for their stories, then pass them on to you.

Thanks for reading, and for being on this journey with me.

Oh, and my Twitter name is @AuthorHelenJ

xx

Twilit Sky

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I took this photo a few evenings ago, at a woodland park near to home.

I love this time of evening.

When the sky is fresh and clear and striped with rainbow colours, the trees black against it. A small sliver of silver moon and the feeling of a day ending, the world settling around you.

So I thought I might share it with you all as the week draws to a close…

Happy weekend, everybody!

Thank you!

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to say a huge thank you to everyone for your positive comments and support. Publishing Oak and Mist has been an intense experience, and it’s great to be part of a community like this one – your feedback and help is so very appreciated.

If you have been kind enough to buy a copy, please leave me a review if you feel moved to do so, as I’d love to hear what people think about the story. Or just message me, if you prefer 🙂

Also, I’ve managed to do another guest post for the Bloomsbury Writers & Artist’s website – a little bit about designing your cover and what you might need to consider. If you haven’t visited their site before, it’s a great resource for writers – after all, they publish the Harry Potter books!

And finally, here is a happy snap of me holding my first copy of Oak and Mist:

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Published!

Yay!

Oak and Mist is finally published!

You can pick up a paperback or Kindle version on Amazon right now (and I would love it if you would do so) 😉

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The end of everything? Great, no pressure then.’

Alma Bevan didn’t mean to go on a quest.
But when she disappears between two trees at her local park and reappears in Ambeth, she finds they’ve been expecting her.

And now she has to find a lost sword or the consequences for humanity will be dire. With no idea where to look, despite help from her new friend Caleb, things become even more complicated when a handsome prince of the Dark expresses an interest in her.

All this plus homework too?

Travelling between worlds is hard enough without having to manage a suspicious best friend, complicated love interests and concerned parents. Add in some time-twisting, a mysterious bracelet and a group of immortal beings all vying for control of a lost sword, and it’s enough to make any fifteen year old girl want to give up. But then she wouldn’t see Caleb any more. Or Deryck…

Oak and Mist is book one of The Ambeth Chronicles. Book two, No Quarter, is coming soon.

For the paperback version on Amazon.com please click here

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For the Kindle version on Amazon.co.uk please click here

For the Kindle version on Amazon.com.au please click here

To my Australian friends who’d like the paperback version, I recommend purchasing from the US Amazon site – I did look at print-on-demand in Australia but it worked out to about the same price. I will also be looking at publishing to Nook and IBooks in the future, but for the moment this is where it’s at!

As you can imagine I’m pretty excited – this has been a goal a long time in the making 🙂

So now I shamelessly ask you all to share the word, read and review (honestly, of course).

With much love

xx